Thursday, December 23, 2021

 

Woah get out the coats my meteorologist says 85 Friday, 87 Saturday, 86 Sunday.

---- A Cold Christmas Nights Dream.

I was dreaming last night, and it must have been a lie. It was about a long time away. It was cold outside, and a coal stove stood in the dining area. Grandma put some ironing irons and bricks on top of the stove. When they were hot, she wrapped them in work clothes. She sent me to bed and put the irons and bricks in bed with me. Grandpa had taken the battery out of the car and hooked it to his radio. I could hear the Joe Louis and Rocky Marciano fight from my bed. I heard the Friday Night Fights is on the Air and the Gillette parrot squawked look sharp, Feel sharp. be sharp.

  I did not remember who won as I went to sleep, and the coal oil lamps were out or turned very low. On waking there was frost on my pillow, but the irons were still warm. The windmill gonged as the tail shifted directions as the night breeze stirred. I could see a full moon going down and I did not want it to go away. The outhouse was out yonder, way out yonder. Soon the cows would moo and the rooster crow summoning grandma who would summon me to fetch the buckets and meet her at the corral.

M. Mercer

Saturday, December 18, 2021

 To the tune of the Green Berets!

Only Jesus knows, this is a Christmas song.

So, close your mind, and drift along, as I silent sing.

A Christmas song, just from us, to him.

Only he, knows our heart, as cold, as it is.

Must be hard, for you to hear, the lies and see, the broken hearts.

I see, I did not do. my best and, broke your heart.

I see, a celebration, coming but, I think you, are the most left out.

So this silent, Christmas song, is just for you.

Tell your mother, thank you, from us for you.

You are my hope, for love and peace, so happy birthday, I silent sing.

MM

Monday, December 6, 2021

 

      A few years ago Christmas went like the following. Only one lie in it.                                 

                                    Remembering Navidad en Mexico!

   With the spouse in the States for Christmas visiting the grandkids I plan my solo Christmas day from Jocotepec Mexico.

   “I saddle Ned in the starlight before dawn and pull the rein from the loop. Mount and ride in a low lope toward San Juan Cosala.

  Coffee in the early light with the Mexicans gathered around a street fire on the carretera just north of the hot baths. Burning and smoldering fires are all along the way. Don't know their meaning jus' know it happens every year.

  Back aboard headin' for Ajijic, I find smoldering fires on Zaragoza and down Colon as I head for the pier. The plaza is empty, but I see the cleanin' crew through the open Music Box door. I'll help um’ open the bar bout ten, after I check the lake level as is my custom every trip here.

  Park ole Ned by the tree in front of the Old Posada and walk in the bright sundown the pier toward the calm water. Seems the lake level is similar to last year but the lirio is not here. Beautiful mountains and the lake before me makin’ the day more than worthwhile. I step up close to the end of the pier and below on the ledge four feet down lovers on a bed of clothes are ignoring the morning cold. Unobserved I depart with envy knowing someone is getting a nice Christmas gift.

  Back up at the bar before I finish my second beer, the usual crowd appears. We have a few rounds, beer, flavored tequila, and a Feliz Navidad or two.  Long about a quarter of twelve I bid a farewell and mount Ned. Head east to Chapala, the old rail head, and beyond to a place they call the Eagle on the east side of town. 

  The turkey is stuffed and friends all around. Red wine and fine women with nice scents make the round. Makes me miss my lady but remember what she is about. Merry Christmas, I pray all remember what it is all about.

   Cool evening, I pull the jacket from the saddle, climb aboard and head for the west end of the lake. Half Moon and Christmas fires light my way. Ned has big eyes and sees, before long I spot my white casa a quarter mile away.

  I talk to the dog and milk the cat. Sometime round the middle of the night I bed down and think on the day. Most folks were mild and calm though some had a little too much drink. I think about the meaning of today, my dad, my daughters, and sons, I spect' it all boils up as one. I’ve always said the Mexicans are God protected but I think I may be too."

  M. Mercer

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Friday, August 20, 2021

 If I Don’t Toot it Who Will So…..

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Cantina Azul
Afternoon Wednesday June 18, 2003
Ajajic Mexico
Think the first time I entered the Blue Tequila Cantina was about six years ago. Mexican natives call it Cantina Azul. They say a Gringo named Tom opened this bar in 1987 and still lives within even though he passed on in 1996. It must be true as sometimes I get messages from Tom about what is going to happen or when someone is coming. Sometimes I know the names of who is coming. Easy says, I spook her when I forecast someone, or something, is coming round the corner. Kinda surprises me too, but I’ve had a not quite normal lifetime. Spent more time sitting at this end of the bar than anywhere in my sixty- three years. Easy has been here three and a half and we have seen it all, fun, terror, blessing, and wonderful memories.
Some things you need to know: Easy is not the bartenders name, but she is quite easy on the eyes, not sure of her real name, or where she is from. My place at the end of the bar is my long-standing comfort zone. Somedays, I go home and write sober and coherent. Leigh, yes Leigh, the one stable strong good woman in my life I do not deserve, watches over me as the angel she is.
The Blue Tequila Cantina serves as a meeting place for expats from over the world. Some seeking, love, some seeking companionship, some enjoying a cheap lifestyle, oh and some escaping their past. All toll, a good bunch of people, using up the end of life as we know it. Brave people, taking a chance on something different. The locals carry us high, and we appreciate all the services they provide. Many frequent the bar and most local closing on property sales are finalized in the Cantina Azul. Oh yes, this is the local NASCAR TV headquarters.
And just like that, it happened again today. Normally folks frequenting the bar don’t ask a lot of questions of each other as we all have something we don’t want to talk about. So, we find out about each other by what they say and not by prying.
Extending his hand, he says, “My name is Sid, may I sit the bar with you?”
“Sure Sid, my name is Jerry, we’ve been expecting you.” I replied.

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Sunday, August 8, 2021

 

     Paintings all Gone

West at the Francis school.

Half mile one black walnut stands.

Marks the sacred past.

No, house, mill, pond, or orchard.

Faulkner wrote-

“The past is never dead. It’s not even past.”

The paintings of youth are gone.

The war took some fight.

Time has taken the loves.

Writings spent, given away.

Eyes not so clear.

Mind hanging on, I think.

What I hear is not said.

Wonder about it all.

Maybe it is time I figure it.

Or do I want to know?

Oh, I see – we bring the past

to the future with living.

Strange - memories remembered-

they’re all the same age as before.

So, the past is not dead or past.

M. Mercer

Monday, August 2, 2021

 

                                         Mexico Flight Plan 1988

 

 November the first in the Central Texas Panhandle Jamie, Serifin and I finished  the fall wheat planting and moved the equipment back to the home place. Janet had made coffee and warmed the tortillas and beans as she watched the weather worn crew park the tractors and drills in the equipment yard.

 "Mike, it is time for Serifin and I to visit our families in Mexico," Jamie said as he spooned frijoles on a fresh flour tortilla .

  " Si, Jamie, when will you leave," I asked?

  " We go Monday, on the bus," Jamie replied.

   " No, Jamie we will take the plane Monday. Do we need to fly to Morelia or to Mexico City?" I said.

    A stunned Jamie replied, "Mike, we have no plane tickets."

    " Jamie you tell me where we need to fly and I will buy the tickets. See I want to go with you to your home in Mexico." I said.

   "Mike, Si, you come to Mexico," An excited Jamie asked?

    I replied, " Si, Jamie , my wife, my mother and I will fly with you brothers home to Mexico."

    "I will call Mexico and see where we should fly," Jamie said.

    "Jamie, Janet will help you make the call to Mexico," I said.

     Janet had been listening in on the conversation and asked, " Jamie you have a bathroom in Mexico?"

    "Si, bano I have in Mexico," Jamie replied.

    Janet asked, "Jamie you have an air conditioner in Mexico?"

    "Oh, Si, I have air conditioner en my casa," Jamie replied.

    The phone call was placed to the only phone in a Mexican community deep in the state of Michigan and as usual some young runner would fetch Estella.  Estella would wait by the phone for our call  back in an hour or so, as she lives a mile or so from the community telephone.

    While we waited Janet asked, "Jamie mashed potatoes and cream gravy in Mexico?"

     Jamie replied, "Si, Pappas but cream gravy like Janet's, No! Janet's is very good."

    " I can tell," I responded and demonstrated with my hands how high Jamie piled the potatoes and gravy when Janet fixes them for him.

     We waited about an hour and a half and Janet placed the call to Mexico and handed the phone to Jamie.

    Jamie explained to Estella about his pending plane trip with three gringos to his Mexican small town. The exchange was filled with excitement and we could hear Estella talkin very loud and excited across the room from the phone. Fifteen minutes and the plan was made and goodbyes said.

    Jamie looked up from the phone and said, " Now you must come to Mexico as my family is very excited, If not I will die a villains death, on my return."

   "Jamie, I will make the reservations then you can call Estella to let her know when we will arrive. Should we fly to Mexico city or Morelia?" I asked.

     " Mexico city as we can visit Morelia after we arrive in my village," Jamie replied.

      I placed a call to a little ole' lady named "Mom" and asked her to join our adventure. Flight reservations made, Estella notified of our arrival time all haste is made to be ready as our due date approached.

      Monday  November 4, 1988 our due date gave birth more slowly than Christmas.

       White knuckles into the air, we observe Amarillo disappear in a cold mist. Jaime gripped the armrest and blew air across his teeth in a low whistle. Serifin pulled his hat low and mumbles a Spanish prayer. Jamie and Serifin each held a wing in the air for the four and a half hours to touch down in Mexico City. As we descended in the mountain air of  Mexico city I asked Jamie, "is this plane ride was faster than the bus."

   Jamie replied, "Si, but maybe I die before we reach the land."

  Serifin, nodded in agreement and applied one last prayer.

  Prayers answered, the plane hugged the runway and taxied to the terminal. As we cleared customs, had our visas stamped with Mexican approval, and carried our bags toward the omnibus red and green light ahead. "Please Senior, push the button to see if we inspect your baggage  before you enter Mexico," an immigration agent announced.

  All our group got the green light go to Mexico except guess who. I was instructed to place my bags on the table and unzip them. As soon as I had them unzipped the agent said, "jip them up, go to Mexico."

   We exited the  terminal as a group onto the street crowded with baggage handlers, taxis, and "oh my God," Jamie and Serifin's entire family with the exception of great grandma and great grandpa. Must  be thirty or more all saying, "buenos tardes and coma es usted, all at once." This Mexican family walked many miles just to meet the Texas travelers. After introductions and private family greetings a plan was developed. Jamie's and his wife Estella agreed to stay in Mexico city to show us gringos the lay of the land. All the other Mejia family members were to return to their village and prepare for our arrival in a few days. We sent them home aboard taxis and busses.

 The Five of us loaded into taxis and headed for the      hotel. (Info on this hotel)

   A late evening dinner in the hotel restrauant honoring Estella ended a long but happy journey.

We learned on Tuesday that the simple honk of a horn and wave of hand allowed our taxi to cross 13 lanes of traffic as we head for the pyramids , no apri lima  our drive said of the miricle.burro beer

 

 

However, in 650AD, a great fire swept through the city, devastating many communities. For some unknown reason a swift decline ensued and there was no massive reconstruction exercise. Several theories prevail - invasion from a rival city taking advantage of temporary weakness, or a culmination of the erosion of natural resources by over-exploitation.

Whatever the cause, the population soon moved to other growing cities and Teotihuacán was virtually deserted. By the time the Aztecs arrived on the scene, the area was little more than an ancient ruin.

To the Aztecs, Teotihuacán was a holy place, where the sun, moon and universe were created. It was they who gave Teotihuacán its name, meaning "The place where men become gods". They also named the Calle de los Muertos, thinking (wrongly) that the many ruined temples and monuments along the "road" were burial places of early rulers. However, the city never regained its concentration of population.

 

 On Wednesday visited the Shrine of the Guadalupe

THE SHRINE AT GUADALUPE
is considered the holiest place in the Western Hemisphere. President John F. Kennedy and French President Charles de Gaulle testified to this during state visits to Mexico. Pope John Paul II preached to millions of the faithful from this holy Shrine during his 979 visit to Mexico. The Basilica commemorates the Virgin Mary's appearance to a humble Indian and honors her request that a Shrine be built in Her honor. In December of 1531, Juan Diego informed a skeptical bishop of his encounter with Mary.

 

A few days later, Juan returned to the site of the vision and once again Our Mother appeared. The humble man relayed the bishop's request for proof of Her visitation, whereupon the Virgin instructed Juan to gather roses from the frozen, rocky terrain and present them to the bishop. Remarkably for the cool season, he found a great number of roses strewn all around. Gathering the roses in a sackcloth, he hurriedly took them to the bishop. When he opened the cloak to present the roses to the cleric, it was not only the blooms that amazed the bishop. Stamped on the humble cloth was an image of the Virgin! The same miraculous image exists for you to see, hanging in splendor above the main altar.

 

On Friday we Rode the subway and shopped till we dropped

On Saturday we spent close to the hotel and restraints nearby.

 

On Sunday we took in the ballet folkalore

Ballet FolklOrico de MExico, Dance

Related Category: Dance

Ballet FolklOrico de MExico, Mexico's national dance company. It was founded in 1952 by the dancer, choreographer, and teacher Amalia HernAndez. Sponsored by the Mexican government, it is headquartered at the National Institute of Fine Arts in Mexico City and regularly tours worldwide. It began as a company of eight dancers that produced dances based on Mexican folklore for television and concert performance. Greatly enlarged, today it is recognized as one of the world's preeminent "ethnic" ballet companies and presents a wide range of colorful dances that spotlight Mexico's regions, history, and culture. The company also runs a dance school.

 

On Monday we checked out of the hotel. I found I had spent a million pesos in one place. Thought I was going to faint until I figured out the amount was only  four hundred U.S. dollars.

We loaded our taxi and traveled to the bus station where all of Mexico mixes and meet to travel.  Hundreds of busses depart and arrive in perfect precision  around the clock. Jamie purchased our tickets and we located an empty bench close to our point of departure. It was hard to keep from loosing  each other in the mass of humanity moving through the  terminal. After an hour of Mexican watching and interaction with every child in Mexico we boarded for  Jamie's hometown. Amazed at the hour to reach the outskirts of Mexico city packed with masses of people and poverty  covering every hill and valley in sight. Another two hours down a narrow highway and we unloaded in an intersection with a gravel road leading east or across the road to the west.. The bus pulled on the highway and slowly disappeared down the road. I could not see any town or person or vehicle of any kind. Jamie stood patiently and gazed at the mountain where the sun was going to set in another hour like he was summoning the Gods. In time a  moving speck appeared on the mountain. Then some kind of a vehicle came visible in the crevasse of the mountain. In fifteen minutes an over worn Volkswagen bus pull to a halt a few meters past our location as the brakes screeched and finally stopped the bus. Luggage on top we load  onto the cramped bus and headed away from the setting sun down a gravel sort of a road. Burro road to be exact, carried us for more than half an hour  before the weak brakes ground us to a stop. We unloaded our bags and the bus left in a cloud of dust.

  Jamie said, " we're here." We are now standing in a dry creek bed and no road was visible, just a trail. A trail I soon discovered  for us to follow. Everyone grabbed a bag and headed up the trail with no end or anyone in sight. 

                           Trading Places or Dear Memory     

 The following letter is a true account of my visit to the Mejia family farm near Morelia Mexico in 1988. We Gringos, Mom, my wife and myself, accompanied brothers Serifin and Jamie Mejia, back to their roots after a years absence.

 

Dear  Memory,                                                                                    November 12, 1988

    We've had a wonderful time at Jamie’s house. Sagrario, Jamie’s 5 year old daughter follows our ever move so we are well protected. Jamie and his four brothers have wonderful homes built with their skilled hands. Janet and I sleep in Jamie and Estella’s bed and Mom sleeps in Sagrario’s bed  while Jamie’s family either sleep in other homes or outside. Honored we are I’d say.

     Clean is the watch word and how they achieve it is magic. Every child sparkles before they smile. Fresh water is available at the corner of the farm a few hours a day and is hand carried to the homes scattered on the ten acre rock farm. Though Jamie’s hometown  doesn't yet have running water or electricity the houses are wired and waiting for the Mexican equivalent to our REA to arrive. 

    The machos take the goat herd into the mountains every morning and retrieve them in the evening. Cheese made from the goats milk is used in every meal.  Corn is planted in the cracks of the huge flat rock they call home. The crop is good as the summer rains were ample. Every grain of corn is ground into meal and every stalk is fed to the lone family hog or the burro.

      Our arrival to the village included a mile walk from where the last taxi dropped us at the end of the road. Two year old little Jamie ran to meet his dad and followed us back to the house gathering enough rocks in his pockets that eventually his pants fell off .

    Jamie always promised Janet that he had a bathroom. At dark on our first day  he handed Janet a roll of toilet paper and pointed to the corn patch just downwind from Jamie’s house.  The story begins, but I’ll let her tell you about how when she got all set up out there, all alone, hidden in the corn stalks,  a burro and it's owner shows up.

    By the way, Jamie's promised air conditioning  was a window with no glass and worked better than a 10 ton unit in the good old you know where.

     No flies, no wind storm, no cold, no hot days, nothing to complain about. Fabulous sandwiches made of a hard corn tortilla, goat cheese, and lime flavored mayonnaise, our equivalent of the bologna sandwich.

     In the evening of the second day a fiesta started before sundown. It was to honor our visit and around a bonfire some relative of Jamie's would tell a story in Spanish and we would all laugh and have a round of El Presidente. Then one of us gringos would tell a story in English and everyone would laugh and we would all have another round  of El Presidente. Mixing in a few cervezas and some corn tortillas the night turned into midnight and midnight turned to late night. Finally I leaned over to Jamie and said, “ I sure am tired.” Immediately the party ended and all started home. Seems as the guest of honor I was to determine when the party was over. A Mexican custom well learned. A fiesta is held every night of our visit. I like that Mexican custom.

   Our meals near  2 O'clock each day are enjoyed in a different home so we can greet personally their family members. Each family present us with their favorite meal. Of course we over eat but the mixture of people is a wonderful experience.

    Our last morning in Jamie's village started with a roosters’ crow as Janet gathered the toilet paper and headed for the corn patch.    Today we would pack for our first trip to Ajijic. Jamie’s truck would haul us to Morelia so we could catch the bus. We three gringo packed in silence as we reflected on the marvelous reception we received from these small town folks. A week long fiesta on our behalf, with the learning of local customs has forever changed our perception of  Mexico, just as we had expected. Jamie’s nature had already tipped us off as to what we thought we would find in Mexico.

   Too many hugs, too many tears, too many goodbyes led us to the edge of town and Jamie’s waiting yellow, 1979, Ford pickup truck. His was the only motor vehicle in town. Aboard and vowing to never look back, as is our custom, headed down the valley to Morelia.

   Jamie hid the tear streaking down his cheek as we ended the visit. The only words spoken on the road to Morelia was when Jamie said,  “ My friends you will always be welcome in my home.”

    The bus station was a human beehive as is the case in all Mexican cities. Seems Mexico moves and moves very well on it’s bus line to everywhere and to nowhere. Jamie helped me purchase the tickets and explained in spanglish the trip would take most of the day. Jamie wanted to wait with us until the bus arrived and we were aboard, but we sent him on his way.

    In an hours time, the bus arrives and we join 300 parakeets for our journey.

   Oh, Memory remind me to write you about, a white knuckle plane trip to Mexico city, spending a million pesos, the bus ride with 300 parakeets, codeine cough drops with a cervezas, and Ajijic Mexico where I spect' I'll live one day.

Regards,

Mike

Wednesday, July 21, 2021

 

                                                                      On Writing

    So, I was reading On Writing by Stephen King and finding out what I already know, “I don’t know much.”

   So, I’m thinking about what happened to Stephen in some later years of his writing career and how it compared to a life event of my own.

   I was standing in a vacant lot, also known as a cow pasture, just south of the Silverton High school Gym, wearing my 1955 model single face guard helmet, way to large shoulder pads, and mud filled cleats wondering what this 85-pound sophomore was doing here?

  Coach O.C. had placed me at defensive right corner and I was to keep all comers from going around my end. Shit here comes 220 pounds of T.D. West with the ball, but ahead of him was John the Schott leading interference for T.D. like he needed some help. While they was a coming, I was thinking, this is gona hurt but it’s my job. Glad it has been raining so the ground will be soft when I go down. I heard the crack as I went down and realized I was totally in-capacitated in the right leg. Pain wasn’t too bad, but I had this strange sensation adrenaline pours on you when you’ve flat out had it.

   Well, I had it, but the coaches kept trying to stand me up, and I kept going down, and I needed to stay down. I always wondered if O.C. was smart as I thought he was, and come to find out he was, he figured out I needed more help than anyone there could give so he brought his car out onto the lot and a bunch of teammates slid me in the back seat. Oh boy, this is gona be fun as the car jumped the muddy ditch just as the adrenalin was wearing off. Oh no, he is stopping at my house, O.C. says to me, “I’m taking you to Tulia to the Hospital figure Jackie would want to know.”  “Oh, hell here I am being a problem and I don’t want to be a problem I just want to play football; I think.” Twenty-six miles of trying to keep my right leg straight and not enough room to stretch out left me partly paralyzed by the time we reached the ER at Tulia Texas.

   Half a dozen good guys and a wheeled stretcher delivers me to the X-ray lab. Some scissors and my cleats and pants disappear. Damn, cold hard table and I think I have been on it for hours before bad news arrives. Thigh bone uh, femur, not cracked but broken and luckily has not punctured an artery or broken thru the skin layer though I could see the dark spot just north of the knee. Tear leaked from the corner of one eye. Looks like I’m tied down for a while.

    Wasn’t long before I got ambulance ride to Amarillo to see about fixing me up. Morphine and its kinfolk kick in, and the evening gets better fast. Vaguely remember the transfer to hospital bed Northwest Texas Hospital. Daylight I find my broken leg being stretched by rope, pulleys, and weights that hang off the end of the bed. Seems doc believe it or not, “Hyde,” tells me we must pull the bone back in alignment before surgery. Dr. Hyde shows me some stainless-steel screws he will use to re-connect the splintered bone. I order more morphine as I eye the five- and six-year old’s circling the weights stretching my leg at the end of the bed. I didn’t bother to ask how long before surgery, just close my eyes and dread the next time the nurses come to pull me back up in the bed, so my weighted leg does not touch the foot rail.

   Surgery day comes and thankful I will get rid of the weights. What I did not know is I woke up with a cast from my ribcage to the tip of my toe on the right leg and down to the knee on the left leg. I could not be more trapped to the bed than if it were a bear trap. One more tear slipped from the corner of my eye. Two days later I find myself in my room with urinal and bedpan for company. No way to turnover, sit up, or even tend to myself. Dear old dad built a rail above the bed with a pulley high enough so he could tie a rope to my cast right leg and give me the end of the rope so I could lift me up and swing sideways just enough to let me flip face down on the bed. I could flip or flop but that was the extent of my movement. Trapped in my mummy case for what may be forever. Don’t like football so much these days.

   Five days later my football buddy classmates show up. “Hi guys good to see you sorry I can’t get up to visit.” Dewey, Joe, Dave, Eldon, Charles, and maybe more have a grin on and it worries me. Uh Oh they are loading me on a wheeled gurney and out the front door. Oh shit, they have a small school bus and slam me inside. Dewey says, “just relax we’ll be to school in a minute.” Worse case Charles is driving and I’m in fear I’ve seen his driving before. Every dip in the street and chug throws the steel gurney up against all the walls and the back of the driver’s seat causing Charles to slam on the brakes. With urinal between legs banging on the cast I hang on the rails as best I can. They all laugh when they unload me on the sidewalk leading to front door of Silverton High School. Evidently, they want to see how fast this gurney would roll and if they could stop it before the two steps going into the school. My lightweight blanket weren’t near enough to keep me covered but I guess I’m just glad to be alive because I’m laughing too.

  Classes on a gurney and a 40-yard race down the sidewalk to lunch at the cafeteria. If I survive five weeks of this, I’ll be in line for the Congressional Medal of Honor or some sort of. That weren’t all of it, I got a ride to all six of the remaining football games in a Ford Ranch Wagon. Mostly endzone view but much appreciated.

  The day they cut me out of the cast was very much like Stephen King felt after his run in with a car that almost took his life. Dr, Hyde used a high-speed circle saw to cut me out of the cast. Felt like I was being cut and bleeding while he was running the saw, then there was a thin, crusty, scaley, ugly, body and me not sure I wanted it to belong to me. Doc says, “we are going to clean you up a bit then let us stand you up for just a moment. Well, I never got to the moment, when my head came up above my body I went out like a light. Sure, glad there were some around to catch me. Next day I sat on the edge of the bed, then the next day I stood up with crutches. Oh man, wheels up except when a crutch slipped. Pain like none other for four weeks limbering up both hips and one knee.

  As Stephen said without all the folks pulling for us and caring for the mess we were, we would not be healed. And yet we were! And allowed us to be creative in our own way.

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

                                                     


  Time is Rolling Along

  As time is rolling along, the countryside is passing my windshield. Two hundred fifty-six miles and I stand looking as far into the past as I go.  A mother left me 72 years ago and a father that left thirty-two years. Memory is as fresh as dew on the grass. We talk a while; I beg forgiveness of my shortcomings and remind them I will be joining them soon. I tell them I’m on my way to see their Amarillo grandson and take in a country music concert. They remind me I know very little more of this grandson than they do. I promise to engage him, look him in the eye and talk about you.

   On down the road I run across some apostles, we talk from wisdom past, and chuckle at our age. Aches, pains, and mirrors tell us we are older than we think as we speak of younger days. They bid me good day and tear as we may not see each other again on this side. I leave as my iron horse is telling me a story of A Time for Mercy from her speakers.

  Long afternoon bar hopping, reacquainting our kinship as I figure out, we live in different worlds and his is good, and different from mine. Music is loud and entertains the 5000+ crowd of young tanned beautiful people. It is good to see so many smiles, hugs, kisses, and handshakes and not the violence or disharmony portrayed on the flat screen. My 78 years watches, and tires quicker than I would like, so a hard walk to distant motel and sleep.

   If you know what a big breakfast is, it was awesome. A goodbye to son who is much older than I thought he might be. The unknown time factor plays tricks on my mind as I head south to home and revisit the past as familiar countryside drifts by my windshield. Down off the caprock just south of Quitaque, as I cross the Los Lingos Creek, I see Jesus. Not really surprised as I have seen him before. One time in Mexico he was riding a horse on a rock road to Morelia. His name was pronounced a little different, but he is the same guy, standing on the bridge. I pull off the road and walk back to the bridge.

  As I approach Jesus says, “Good to see you it’s been a long time.” as he leans on his walking stick.

  “Oh yes it has been a while. Do you need a ride?”

  “No, I have just left the falls and pond back up the creek. I knew you would be along and figured you would recognize me and pull over.”

   “So, you remember, and I must ask. Have you seen me in your travels?”

   “Oh yes I see you making dust” Jesus replied and added, “you are doing a pitiful job of it.”

   “I know,” I reply, look down, and add, “I have a problem with my missteps.”

    Jesus reminds me,” It is my job the handle your missteps, and your job not to make them, you must remember I am here for you.”

   “So, you’re going to show up no matter what, on my journey?”

   “As long as you look out the windshield, or lift your eye to a stranger, I will see you makin’ dust.”

   “Thank you for the visit, keep a watch on my dust, help me to make worthy dust.”

   “Once again as back in Mexico Jesus says, “Come back this way one more time.”

    I ask about his caballo and he responds, “He has gone to the beyond, but I visit him often.”

    “Thank you for the visit and watch for my dust, I will do better.” I say as I pullback on the road and remember the time he rode on my shoulder in my old Jimmy truck.

     Down the road past the Fairmont Baptist Church, Flomot, Matador, on to Jacksboro to pick up fried chicken. I approach home and feel blessed for my safe trip. The wife is patient and glad I brought chicken and gravy as we enjoy what is left of this fine Easter Sunday. I will tell her of my day later, she will not be surprised.

Tuesday, June 1, 2021


                                                              Artifacts

            Generally, it takes five hours or hard walking to find one good point to put in my pocket. Today I was lucky, I found a bone necklace piece, a bird point, and half of a medicine grind stone.

            It has always intrigued me to hold in my hand something made hundreds of years ago by a hunter or even a homemaker. I look up to the hills or at the nearby playa and try to visualize how it was in some time long passed. I have a definite feeling about each piece I find as to the individual and his personality. How the weapon or tool was used and the craftsmanship in making the piece tells a lot about the person that owned each artifact I find.

  What is so grand is that there are cultures from thousands of years ago up to the present to study all in the same location. I once thought these people must have had a hard life. But now I think of their isolation, abundance of food, and natural protection, and it gives me the feeling their lives were more serene that ours. Only when invaders like the white man came was there real upheaval.

  If you have not slept in a deer hide tent or under a buffalo blanket you have missed knowing how warm and cozy it was without all our modern conveniences. The buffalo left manure chips for fire and the water was pure and clean to drink. Yes, it was cold in the winter and hot in the summer, but there were many valleys with caves, rocks to get under, and some trees for shade. When the flies got bad they just moved their camp to a fresh location.

  The necklace piece I found was probably a bone from a first kill of young hunter and worn thereafter for luck. The hole in the necklace was worn oblong and the bone polished a though it had been worn for a long period of time. 

  The medicine grindstone must have been used for more than a hundred years and passed from generation to generation. It is cupped on each side from grinding and is still stained with the berry juice much like some of the Matas I have that show war paint from centuries ago.        

  One Mata I found sticking out of the side of a wash still had the grind rock under it.  The grinder must have been hidden for the summer just before the camp headed off to follow the buffalo.  Some woman probably returned to used the grinder another winter, but something happened and her hidden treasure was never used again.

  The bird point I found today is very small and were used to kill buffalo as well as birds. The small point would penetrate deep into the bison's hide.  This point belonged to someone who was a perfectionist. The chipping is flawless. Some of the larger points I have found have rifling, much like the principal modern rifles use to spin the bullet on a true course.  These points are thick on one side and thin on the other making the arrow spin true. It is hard to believe they knew how to make the arrow spin and hold a course.  Others points I have found in this area tell of a time before the bow. They are long and convex on the surface and were used as a spear point.

  There are evidences of as many camps on the plains as in the valleys. Generally on the plains I find clues on the Southwest side of a Playa Lake. Bloodstones as I call them (or boiling rocks) are prevalent on he Southwest side of many Playa's in the Texas panhandle. I think the prevailing Southwest wind led the people to camp so the buffalo gnats and mosquitoes would be blown away from the camp. May be that the sand-blows have covered the evidence of camps on the North side of the lakes. The rainwater in the lakes was fine for bathing or drinking as the grass and reeds purified the water.

  These people of the plains must have been a hardy peace loving bunch because I can feel them around me and they cry out for me to understand that they were tied to the land and game. They had to fit into the a certain pattern to live and survive. They are telling me it has not changed for us even with our concrete buildings and gas heat. By the number of flint chips and fireplaces I find, there must have been more people in Briscoe County's past than in all recent history combined. I wonder and listen to the hills for a message from the past. Sometimes I can feel the people watching me. I can hear the wail of the women in the heat of battle. Some of the grounds I walk show signs of war and tribulation, and some of a definite winter peace.

Wednesday, May 26, 2021

Forever Alone - we are responsible for our own happiness.
Even how small it may be share it in kindness.
Best of me and even when I am not, I wish it to be.
It is not about heroes but life and the headlock some experience.

Welcome to the wall. It has been a long war. It may be the only home you have, it has no end, till you join those on the wall. Welcome home my friend.
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Sunday, May 16, 2021

 

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So, if you’re a Vietnam Veteran not so welcomed home, and have lost contact with those you served with those many years ago, and still wonder about them, just maybe, Forever Alone is a book for you. Closed off from a distant war you may never have completely returned home from. Read how some deal with the memory. It is not about heroes but the headlock some experienced.